Grades issues. Crap.

Hi!

Great day isn't it.

Great in a sense that there are no classes tomorrow! Yehey!

I in effect, would be staying up late, as is my custom during free nights.
Ironic. 'Cause when it's a night supposed to be encumbered w/ lots of school works, that's when, you'll find me in bed, early on around 9pm.

That's why, my grades are in constant TOPSY TURVY sort nowadays.
They've gone wild, while I go insane.

Our Class ranking and averages were released just this Thursday, and I'm thoroughly swept from the upper bound of the class where i used to reign with the "Big" people. But now, am no longer am.

I was initially saddened but my heart was immediately revived.

I'm just glad that I am no longer a freak for grades.

I'm happier by the millions.

Maybe I was just looking for an excuse for my "dethronation"

BUT

as the song in my playlist says, "It's gonna be me"

If I am justifying anything - in relation to my present class standing...
well, that's because it's undeniably justifiable.

I can justify it - both ends and means.

I never joined any alliance - frankly cheaters - for any win, in any aspect - of my stay in Quesci. That's what I'm truly proud of.

As the preaching said this morning,
the real victory does not lie in wealth, medals, or applause of men,
it is in knowing and understanding the will of God.
And if that's the REAL victory, then that's what I'm gonna pursue. ",

GRADES are FUTILE and SENSELESS.
It's not a fair battle after all,
I chose to take a break, not to be defeated, not to withdraw, but to gather more strength for ones more worthwhile.

I smell a better day ahead.

<3 V-day..

sick.

You must have expected that I'll be writing something for a valentine treat today.
Actually, nothing significant happened to me with regards to the issues of the hearts.
I am, in its most literal and satirical sense - SICK. I do have colds today due to an epidemia in the classroom from which I was not exempt. I spent much of my hours [and would rather do so] sleeping at the clinic.

flashback.

My crush, is actually a classmate of mine. Like me, he's also reserved and I only have the slightest idea of what type of girl attracts him. We're not in any way close because, he has his own string of guy friends and prefers to hang out with them around the campus. I also have my own band. That's why, it really feels awkward to move just an inch closer to him.

He is a popular crush among the girls of the batch and I really wonder why I fell into his spell. He did nothing to attract me. Just his natural presence mesmerizes me. I don't know but it's really a weird feeling to have him around.

conclusion.

I'm a bit sentimental today, since I was somewhat anticipating something surprising to happen today. This Valentines turned out to be just an ordinary [even gloomy because of my severe colds.] I don't know if he even cares about my presence in the classroom.

My only consolation is the knowledge that he has never returned the attention/compassion of those gals who almost worship him. Not within our campus grounds at least. I hope not to witness it if it happens one of these days [except of course if the gal aforementioned would be me].. :P

-entry ends here- gotta sleep now-

`still water runs deep ++

Hi! It's me once again!

Well, who do you expect it must be in the first place? Shheezz... watta nonsense.

Oh.. wait a minute, I haven't even introduced myself to you yet. But actually...I had it on purpose. I don't intend to blurt out my identity here. Not with all the messy revelations I'm displaying on this blog at least. I'm not ready yet. I plan to have this blog as my online diary and if I can't conceal it
from the eyes of possible page browsers - that is you - as you happen to read this now... I'd have the nerve enough to keep my identity from public knowledge.

As for now, three things are irrevocably true...

I am a teenager - 16.
I am a Filipina.
I am a christian - in its most precise definition.

You'll get to know me anyway if you stick into
reading my entries - that is - if you don't find yourself being

bored
to
death.

In the first place, I don't intend to share this diary to
you... I created this for myself - as a diversion, as a journal of events, as an outlet of my thoughts and as a masterpiece of my emotions. Moreover, I would like to enhance my writing skills and practice my english since they're two essential abilities I have to enrich as a student.

Upon your discovery here, you've found the key that'll unlock my world of dreams mingled with truths. One aphorism says that "Thoughts disentangle themselves when they pass through your fingertips." Another says "Still water runs deep." As you penetrate my thoughts in form of tangled words, I welcome you to my own call of journey named life.

"Step into my
silent realm and unveil
my much deeper worth."

-Have a blessed day!-

hearts and signs <3

It's February and I'm totally insane with the idea of love and crushes!

It's awkward for two things: first, I'm not known for being expressive of my emotions towards the opposite sex; second, I'm not making this aspect of my life a priority - not now or ever. For me, crushes are mere accessories.

BUT.. why am I saying these things... and why do I have to create a blog like this?

Two reasons: first, it's normal for teenagers to have crushes, regardless of how reserved they are...[just like me]; second- i need an outlet for my emotions. Besides, i realize that this unique experience of crushing on a certain person comes only once in a lifetime [at least normally] and most of them are really worth cherishing. Why? Well that's at least for the person who contains the emotions. If you're crushing, you notice even the slightest gesture of your crush... and you treasure even the smallest detail of his personality. Indeed, it's a sweet part of being human.

I don't know if you'll be actually interested in my stories here. It's like putting in my own love life into broadcast. But I warn you as early as now, my ideas depend on my mood, generally. I don't know if I'd be able to maintain writing about my feelings... especially that I'm not that spontaneous.

Don't worry. Even though that'd be the main theme of my blog, you'll be assured that I'd still insert some other worthwhile items here from the other corners of my life.

***

I have something to share to you for a kick-off.

I was walking by a certain street this morning,
when I passed by an enterprising chain,
whose name sign read a certain date,
and I was really shocked of what I saw...
It bore the birthdate of my crush!

I then turned right towards a corner,
and guess what the name of the street read.
Capricorn! And that's me!

Walking further along the road,
I spotted an art/design shop,
whose name sign, simply read...
SIGNS.

Whew!

I think it's a little bit corny.. and can just be a series of mere coincidences,, but I tell you they are not usual for me. It's not an everyday thing to encounter those sorts of stuff. I secretly anticipate something connected w/ this experience.

There you go.. you just had a taste of what to expect from my blog. It's up to you to linger or to exit.

Happy hearts' month!

Itchy beginnings.

i'm totally new - trying to dash out a new blog. [waw. as if i could maintain this neatly.] anyway, it's a nice try after all. i'll just see you soon when i'm sure that everything's swept and clean enough, for you to have rooms to roam around. thanks for dropping by. :]